I don't have a to do list for the new year, I have a want to list.
For 2010 I want to learn to make things new. I want a freshness in this year that I've not had for a while. I want to look at old things in new ways. I want to believe in new ways, write in new ways. Be a friend in new ways, and be smart enough to know what needs to be thrown away. I keep shoving stuff in my closet, telling myself I need it. I'm not sure I do. Things, at least some of them, feel like a leash to me. I remembered this particularly today when I took my dog Max to the park, unclasped his leash, and watched him roll and play with the other dogs. I want to give myself some off leash time in 2010.
It's snowing in Brooklyn — the right way to end a year and begin a new one. Let it snow over 2009 and into 2010. Let the freshness fall, let it all be made new. Amid the sorrows and joys of this year — and both of them have been deep — I want to make a new way and travel it.
Here's to 2010. May our hearts be refreshed and our dreams renewed. Happy New Year!